Where did my spark go?

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There used to be a time when I would have such a spark of enthusiasm when it came to life and things in it.

Lately I have noticed that I don’t have the same spark and I would like to know what happened?

There was a time that I would look at any new adventure or project and think wow this is so cool and I couldn’t wait to dig in. I would dig in so hard at times that it would encompass me, it would take my entire focus and nothing else around me mattered. I would get energized and inspired by something new.

Lately however, everything I see and hear and do is just the same. Like a routine or I have been there and done that! Mundane is a good word to explain the feeling.

Why? Why am I so cynical? Is it that I am getting older? Is it others around me? Is it just the world in general?

I have made major changes in my life in the past year but still don’t find the spark or burning fire that I use to once have.

I keep trying different things only to still feel the same way. Sometimes it makes matters worse because now I am overburdened even more because of something new I tried.

Am I the only one going through this? Is this part of life? What makes people want to go on when there doesn’t seem to ever be an end in sight or it just seems to be the same thing day after day.

Now I know some of you will say, suck it up and get off your butt and do something. Change it if you don’t like it.

It is easier said then done. I have tried and tried but feel like my hands are bound. Bound because of life, my daily life that I have to maintain because of my family. I can’t just get up and leave or start over somewhere new, it is not that simple.

What are your opinions? Do you feel this way or is it just me? Am I just burnt out? And if so what can I do about it?

( If you are reading this anywhere but my blog, you can find the original post here. )

6 thoughts on “Where did my spark go?”

  1. I’ve been there…it’s called being overwhelmed. You say…”once I finish this, my life will be so much better and I’ll have time to do what I want”…sometimes it’s too much, but, life’s a process not a project….if you stop moving, you’ll die like a shark…it’s about using the currents to help you swim…

    • I think you might be right about the overwhelmed part. Not because I have so much work to do but I have so many things that I want to do that my head goes in too many places…

  2. I would not mind to make dramatically change. I’ve done that many time.

    I quit smoking in one day. I changed my career from cancer researchers into 3D animation artist and now I am on my own as entrepreneur. I left my country and move on to American dream. I quite my well paid job and go on 7 months backpacking.

    Change is good if you are willing to get out of your comfort zone.

    People are afraid of changing their life, because they don’t have a dream or don’t have the guts to chase the dream. They are afraid of losing what they have, but they don’t realize without losing some, you won’t be able to gain some.

    • I have made a dramatic change within the last year. But still it seems that nothing is exciting anymore. Maybe I need to backpack for 7 months :)

      I agree that it is too easy to get stuck in a comfort zone… This is what I have to change and also to focus and get things done instead of trying to do everything and not getting anything done.

  3. Sparks are flames waiting to be fanned. Life balances itself out this way. We cannot always be on fire. I heard a great sermon once by Commissioner Raymond Cooper of The Salvation Army who said “the tendency of fires is to go out”. This holds true even for those who don’t relate it to a spiritual battle. The fire of inspiration begins with a spark that is fanned into a flame, yet its natural tendency is to die out. The laws of nature tend toward disorder and decay, but it is the spirit of life that encourages us to fan the flames and reignite sparks and climb mountains in order to leave sparks of light for others to follow. I like the light that you give off, Phil, I enjoy hearing your thoughts and I am very new to this blogging thing. I hope my words have encouraged you as you always encourage me. – Stacy

    • Very cool analogy… Thank you for your kind words and it is interesting to know that I have encouraging words to share… I never thought of it that way… I thank you for your words and they too are encouraging, especially “Sparks are flames waiting to be fanned.”

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