There used to be a time when I would have such a spark of enthusiasm when it came to life and things in it.
Lately I have noticed that I don’t have the same spark and I would like to know what happened?
There was a time that I would look at any new adventure or project and think wow this is so cool and I couldn’t wait to dig in. I would dig in so hard at times that it would encompass me, it would take my entire focus and nothing else around me mattered. I would get energized and inspired by something new.
Lately however, everything I see and hear and do is just the same. Like a routine or I have been there and done that! Mundane is a good word to explain the feeling.
Why? Why am I so cynical? Is it that I am getting older? Is it others around me? Is it just the world in general?
I have made major changes in my life in the past year but still don’t find the spark or burning fire that I use to once have.
I keep trying different things only to still feel the same way. Sometimes it makes matters worse because now I am overburdened even more because of something new I tried.
Am I the only one going through this? Is this part of life? What makes people want to go on when there doesn’t seem to ever be an end in sight or it just seems to be the same thing day after day.
Now I know some of you will say, suck it up and get off your butt and do something. Change it if you don’t like it.
It is easier said then done. I have tried and tried but feel like my hands are bound. Bound because of life, my daily life that I have to maintain because of my family. I can’t just get up and leave or start over somewhere new, it is not that simple.
What are your opinions? Do you feel this way or is it just me? Am I just burnt out? And if so what can I do about it?